I just reserved a table for 2 in Swissotel Merchant Court on 10th May.

Yes, 10th May, MOTHERS' DAY!

My mother has always been looking forward to having a meal with me in one of the hotels for buffet. Hee! I can't wait for 10th May to arrive.

Time flies. My lessons are coming to an end. I have to book examination dates for my modules. Hopefully everything goes on smoothly.

I took a look at my old blog (www.vanillalady.blogdrive.com). It was old, yet detailed. I wondered how I came out with those blog entries. I must be very bored? haha I don't know. I can even spend a paragraph on cooking noodles in microwave. haha

I cannot be the Vivian in 2006. I just really can't. Things have changed. I have changed.

I have nothing to write in my blog. hahahahahhahahaha

Someone has pleaded. Something positive in your blog please! And to avoid my dear friends from worrying…

I am really sorry about the past few entries I had posted. They seem melancholic, it just happens that I post entries at the times I feel sad. “Random Thoughts of Vivi”, hmm I shall include the positive ones as well!

Life has been fulfilling! Work is fun (thanks to my neighbours). Close friends of mine know, I am currently working and studying ACCA as well. I am currently taking 3 papers out of 9 foundation modules. I am so thankful that I met Joy (my uni friends) and we happened to be in the same class for two modules! Hee! I love Weds, Thurs and Fri (days of my lessons)! Although at the end of the lessons, I can feel so mentally drained to the extent that I only know (I am forced to squeeze out the diminutive amount of energy left) how to walk towards the bus stop, board the bus, reach home, bath and sleep. I love the lessons! Thanks to the lecturers who make the lessons so practical and interesting. Thanks to “a special someone” who is there to fetch me home at times…

I become the regular of Macdonalds, Burger Kings and Bread talk. Haha Weird it seems, but I kinda like this kind of lifestyle, grab a sandwich, eat as I go.

Of course other than lessons, I did meet up with my good friends. Not as often as before but yes I will!! !!!!

Besides, Jurong Point is now a nice place to shop! Heh! I love the fishes in the supermarket. They are ALIVE!!! Fish meat is best eaten when the fishes are killed only before you cook them!! YUMMY! Heh Heh!! (lunch time so I am thinking of FOOD)

Yanru and Zhaocheng and Ruijie and Helen and Robson and Siting etc.. .can we meet up soon?

Seasons change..

I never dare to tell people how happy I was or declare anything. Because whenever I do so, bad things start to happen.

Just when I lose my guards, bad things start to happen.

I acknowledge it: I am cursed.

Busy busy..

A call at 4am in the morning..

Duhz.. who is calling me at 4am!!!

A familiar voice. A long missing friend.

..

Something happens that manages to make me cry again. Why so? I have been kind of numbed, ignoring what my heart is telling me. And after crying, I am grateful that someone is there for me. Yet these few nights I haven't been sleeping well. I dreamt. I dreamt of what my heart have always wanted.

I have to be careful in my words. I can't express everything here. I don't want to hurt anyone. Sometimes I feel tired. Sometimes I just don't even want to think about it. Maybe put it this way, I choose NOT to think about it. I choose to accept whatever that comes, treasure whatever is given to me.

Nothing of that sort can be guaranteed.

I shall focus on my study. Focus on my career.

It has been a long time since I write my blog. Siting was asking me about my blog, but I don't know what to write... So perhaps I shall just show a song lyrics here. haha I will try to update my blog again.. Sorry friends.

林峰 - 包青天主题歌 作曲：邓智伟 作词：张美贤

夜尽了 我会畅快饮醉
让苦水变作了绝句
繁华盛世似月星跌坠
大笑过後洒眼泪
没有寄望也就没唏嘘

痛到何程度值得真流泪
爱到何程度值得一再追
地老再等天荒多么教人憔悴
誓言若似太难记住别记取

到哪天承受什麽都能睡
要哪天才愿活的心似水

步上了这天阶怎可往后退
自言自语我越说就越心虚
都只得说下去